4. DEPRESSION

I filed a police report on your friend the night you wouldn’t come over That ledge looked like my best friend A noose my new lover Your friend played a game of tic tac toe inside You focused on the game Not all the X’s he placed on my body without my permission

You weren't there to bury the remains. too busy with the booze and the boys while I shoveled all night burying something I didn't even want hospital bills down the drain vomit from your late night escapades circling the drain hoping my lips will offer you enough condolences wishing I could scream until I'm blue in the face from what we've lost your friends hoping I'd just die from asphyxiation

stuffed up nose scattered tissue paper sinus pressure cause I saw you again hands shaking can't tell if it's you or the sinus infection

Crying in the car wash Hungover from DayQuil and tequila Cause baby you don’t love my anymore Lana del ray song Raspberry slushie...

You’re a gnat I can’t swat away when… I’m drunk Blisters on my feet But you’re the only scab I pick at

I call all of my friends beautiful bicker if they even remotely scrutinize themselves but my mirrors tell a different tale looking for...

Ophelia loved a man Her father died I loved a man My father got sick.

Here lies the body of the only woman who ever really loved you What do you have to say for yourself now that you’ve killed your lover?...

I see her on the swing sometimes worshipping as you push with your green eyes maybe you'd be different with her kissing her bye like you...

I keep picking at flowers in our garden realizing it's almost empty you won't even speak my name for the flowers are all dead

I fell for another loser SHOCKER!!! except he wasn't you, i barely cried into my coffee black no cream no sugar not these days he played...

I told you I bled out a bundle of cells, texted me a year later, Wyd? What a gentlemen!   Standing when we argued, Having to be above me...

I’m on a sit com, With an in-person audience, Even when I’m bleeding out because of you and your friends.

I’m on a raft With my legs dangling The shark of your friend’s opinions taking bites at my open wounds ones you left open when you said I...

The Christmas lights are up again you still don’t want me back Red and green Antidepressants and tinsel

I disappeared into the night With only a few whispers to strangers partial truths about our love affair How was I supposed to continue to...

A little birdie told me you got T boned Cried on the pavement Drunk on tequila and manipulation Hovering over your contact How many more...

You once said that going down on me was like flossing your teeth. and then you grinned at me, with your squeaky clean teeth, it's funny...

We went from how's your car tint? To you cursing my name.

Paint my empty womb, With your pretty lies and kisses, All bruised and clotted.